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Sometimes I Just Don't Know

by Bryan Estepa

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I’m not ready for this She told me I'm not ready for this She told me I should leave it alone They told me I should sleep on it Late tomorrow it won't be unknown Stay together for a little while Run its course on this crooked mile Convinced ourselves that it couldn't exist The possibility is far too low Way too different with an added twist Explanations given blow by blow Hopping on this merry go round At the mercy of the lost & found She told me I'm not ready for this If the luck has turned away in spades Visions of a life we could have made History repeating like before But for me you've always been the one Even with the years that's come and gone Forgetting first loves can't be done No it can't be done
Rattled and Rolled You rattle me And make me second guess I'll work for free Cos i figured that I don't wanna go Send for some help Can't win this on my own I've come prepared For the minute that you decide to show Though it's wiser to forget Three words we can't regret Walk way before the heart melts The hole is wide It can fit a thousand lies I'll justify all the reasons that I don't want to go Send for some help Can't win this on my own I've come prepared For the minute that you decide to show Bow your head low Keep your eyes glued on the page Read the words slow And tell me you still feel the same I've laid it out so you can scrutinize Leaving out nothing to trivialize My head is sore can't feel my face Scratching the surface is where we are Dig my heels for the chase
Like The Cruel I try to be nice But I like the cruel A dedicated play from an old fool I try to stay away for my own health But I’m committed to boring you to death Losing all control On the seventh day of the seventh hour We’ll proclaim the word from the lowest tower Give me time to dwell Give me ample speed Give me everything that I’ll ever need Losing all control Say it loud dear lady But we’ll be the only ones Who’ll make it out but we’ll barely float And you gave me nothing But me on the losing side and tear apart what we already own Leaving all the ones we love and hurt to ease our load Have the tables turned? Have you had your say? Have you given more than you could take? Put it in a jar buried it in the deep Celebrate the ways that we’ll never be Losing all control
Another Kind Of Madness Out on my own Out of my way Been willing myself To ignore the pain And let it all slip and hide To a corner of my mind Someone will fall Someone will stay Bottle up the dirt To remain the same And brush it off to the side Spill it on the floor What's yours is now mine Hey, is this another kind of madness And stay, to revel in your bursts of sadness We're only as old as we feel we are We can't stop running cos we've come to far And hey, is this another kind of madness I know that you couldn't buy it all Dangle the proof that we can't ignore For everything I say will be sold Hey, this ain't the way you're meant to see me And shake, the cobwebs off the hidden meanings We're only as old as we feel we are We can't stop running cos we've come to far And hey, is this another kind of madness
No Ordinary 03:29
No Ordinary I see your heart is racing infatuation Can't say I blame you I would be just the same She's not so ordinary She'll be your mission And use those people skills To get in the frame Recall your history and It ain't so pleasing Slow off the Mark It's got you feeling the dread She's not so ordinary Maybe the greatest And gamble everything Till you're seeing red Keep your head on boy Make it right Don't rely on what they say Bend the limits of what you know now Step inside and seal your fate Come tonight
Granted 04:14
Granted Don’t take each other for granted Though it’s easy to forget The little things the years did bring And the Sparks when we first met Though it’s second nature And we move with a certain grace We trip over each other Like were strangers from a foreign place The anchored ships are drifting With no directions to be found And the sun is unforgiving to those lost and nowhere bound Somewhere in the middle A solitary sound Will arrive to those who understand All the other ways around Carry on till we both find another town Don’t take each other for granted As where there’s comfort there’s gotta be pain We leave our fate to others while the familiar ones refrain Though it’s second nature And we sway to a broken beat Our clinging hands and worst laid plans Are the ones that we tend to keep Made to wait out in the shade But it ain’t the cover we arranged Now baby you should know Nothing is certain while the trust is low And you’ll be the storm that breaks us down and bring my senses round Around to you I thought as much Play it through
Drawn like magnets Rubbed you off the wrong way It'll leave us looking sidewards, awkward and vague. Hide my tracks so you can't see. Run away Run away till there's no-one left but me As the night time rolls we'll fade into the waiting dark. Like the tricks you start. Leave the hand that feeds you and cut to your favorite part. Skip the lonely hearts With every turn you concede Brings a string of luck in return for your good deeds Found your tracks now I will lead Get away Get away till we're only a memory We left it running way too long Can not resist the words of sadness Aimed to cross Over the good we take for granted Either way we're drawn like magnets I'm not taking what I'm not sure of
Anything and Everything As soon as you spoke we heard the pin drop It's the thickening the plot Eyes turn away as you made your escape But you'll stop right before the gates It'll take a lot to change me Don't feel bad it didn't work out Come tomorrow maybe I will realise that I don't want anything Let me introduce myself I'm a shadow and fake at best Made up tales to get me through Taken every inch I can from you
Valleys 05:11
Valleys I have come to break your spell I've been under for so long God knows I've tried to free the line But the pull is far too strong It's as steady as it goes If it works I'm not quite sure We're entitled to our secrets While we're looking for a cure Like a heart that's barely there Or pretending to get by All the others try to understand Why you have made up your mind We are too late to rewind We were following the rest Repeating moves that dragged us down and screaming from our chest If we learn to how deal with the valleys The hills will take care of itself And no matter what your shoulder carries The next one won't be felt And float on, give more Riding on a tide of the one trick kind to shore With all my might, I'll hold onto ragged strings and dented rings we go out alone Guiding missions to the front But your leading from the back In an endless stream of no replies A tonic for a heart attack Could I have been more aware? Could I have been more inclined? To meddle with the fortunes of the paths That’s intertwined
MEASURE OF A MAN I've been pondering this question for a long, long time As I work my way up the status line Nobody get in my way I will tread and barge all day Or do I wake up Before the break of dawn And swelter in the sun 8 hours long I'll ache so we'll be free Give you what you depend from me We can turn the tables And reverse our roles I'll be the king of the house While I drown in chores The world will learn to see There's no difference in you or me I'll give all of myself Not leave you high & dry I don't value my worth by what's supplied Confusion there may be Like a million thoughts from a tree We can go through all the motions And play everything to plan Carried on with what I thought was enough, I didn't understand Tell me when you find this measure of a man So I gave in Where did you go? We’re selling ourselves short Should I try to check out Leave it all behind And burden you with my gutless mind Turn up every few weeks Play the role I was meant to keep


Music and Lyrics © Bryan Estepa 2019

Produced by Bryan Estepa & Josh Schuberth
Recorded and Mixed by Josh Schuberth at Endomusia Studios & Love Hz Studios
Mastered by Willy Bowden at King Willy Sound

* Rattled and Rolled - Produced by Michael Carpenter

Performed by:
Russell Crawford - Drums & Backing Vocals
Brian Crouch - Piano & Hammond Organ
Bryan Estepa - Vocals & Guitar
Dave Hatt - Guitar
Dave Keys - Bass
Michael Carpenter - Bass, Drums, Organ & Vocals (Rattled and Rolled)
Tom Sowonja - Backing Vocals

Cover Art by Talk Ink


released August 23, 2019


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Bryan Estepa Sydney, Australia

Bryan Estepa is an Australian Singer-songwriter who has been part of the Australian independent music scene for over 20 years. Estepa has released 6 critically acclaimed studio albums and undertaken several tours through Australia, Europe, USA, Japan and The Philippines. Bryan has once been labelled one of 'Sydney's best kept secrets'.

New EP 'Back To The Middle' available 24th Sep 2021.
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